Ever felt like you were something important to some people and the feeling started fading away because of the things they said? What wasn't said directly to you and something the person with no doubt would realize, but does still affect you? Ever felt like you were someone of 'uniqueness' and were shot down by what others thought of you and the things you did and the things you like? What friends would they be? If you tell them not to do something because it would hurt you and they did it anyway.  What friend are they for taking advantage of you? What type of person would push you around, could be younger than you, and thought they knew everything about you, when in fact..they only know the you that was with them or the you that you don't share with anyone else. Like a one-of-a- kind trait, used to cover up something that only you wouldn't want to explain. Wouldn't want to explain because it meant so much to you and you wouldn't know the outcome of what could be another broken friendship. Wouldn't want to explain because the others wouldn't understand.  They would listen, yes..and say they do understand when they think you don't know them. Fact is, they don't understand, probably no one will, and it doesn't matter because eventually someone will see what you've gone through. Why not explain in writting a book? Again, no one would understand you. You could explain something in person with someone understanding more of what you said than what you wrote. Everyone holds back something. Something they don't want others to know about for one specific reason. It's not what would affect the listener, it's what would affect the speaker. You would have a lump in your throat everytime you would begin to say it, but why not finish it? Emotional distress? Not having the guts? Whatever it is, it prevents people from saying what they'd want to say..if they wanted to say it. And there are times you do, but switch to something else just because you know no one could understand. Why is having friends healthy? It's not really..just a human desire. They are like ads on television. "When you buy this, you get this absolutely free!" It's just like that. When you earn your friend, you automatically think you'll get this good friendship, but when the time arrives, it's not there. In fact, it's never there. We see something that looks like a real friendship, but it's fake. You want someone to be there for you..even people say the would be there for you, but they're never there. We do try our best though. People out there reading this will judge me, no doubt, but who sees that? Me. I know some of the people too. I let it slide everytime, but now I'm telling them that I know what I see. And what I see isn't good. I ask..If you don't understand me, what right gives it that you can judge me? To most of you, I am a friend. To a very, very few, I am something more. Life isn't perfect, but when you see something like this, it shows little of what you have and what you don't need.

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